by Debra Doxer
Genres: Contemporary, New Adult, Romance, Suspense
Publication Date: December 8, 2014 by Self-Published
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I lived in paradise, and I loved Spencer Pierce.
At fourteen, my life was perfect. The beach was my playground, and the boy who stole my heart lived just around the corner. But perfect never lasts. In one horrifying moment, I lost it all. My family was destroyed, and the boy I believed in turned his back on me. Paradise became a nightmare.
That was five years ago. Everything changed when we moved from our home by the sea. I’ve changed, and I don’t like who I’ve become. I miss the smiling, carefree beach girl who disappeared that terrible night. I want to find her again. I want to face the people we ran from so long ago. Most of all, I have to face Spencer. So I can prove that when he broke my heart, he didn’t break me.
But when I see him again, Spencer Pierce is no longer the boy from my memories. He’s now a man who could devastate me if I let him. He watches me when he thinks I’m not looking. There’s regret written on his face when he’s near. Each time I see him, my heart aches for what might have been, and I think his does too. How can I convince myself I’m over him when I suspect he never got over me?
I received this book for free in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.
I don’t know where to start with this review. It was very touching and it hit me on a deep level. While some of the readers may identify with Sarah, I related to Spencer a whole lot more. Let me give you a little bit of background on each of the characters and then I will say why I relate to Spencer.
Sarah met Spencer when she was only 14-years-old. She had a crush on him as soon as she met him because he was a very good looking guy. Sarah was/is an artist and she would see things for what they really were and not only the exterior; as days passed and she would see Spencer from time to time and have a glimpse into his real self, she started falling for Spencer’s personality—there was more to Spencer than he led people to believe and only Sarah saw glimpse after glimpse until Spencer started opening up to her while he was drunk. Five years later, Sarah decides to come back to the town she left behind because she wants justice for her father’s murder and she uncovers dark secrets that her mother knew, but never told Sarah. She also sees the guy that broke her heart, only to find out that Spencer really loved her but he pushed her away because he was too fucked up to stay in her life and he wanted to protect her.
“I knew it would be you,” he said. “I knew you were the one to stay away from.”
I know you want to hear (or rather read) more about Sarah but I want to talk about Spencer. Spencer was the kind of guy that every girl liked and wanted. He was very kind and charismatic, but he also had secrets that were scarring him inside and out and this is where I related to him. He was so closed off, not wanting to get close to anyone, not wanting to open up, only to deal with everything on his own until Sarah came along. His outlet was music, just like mine was reading, but it wasn’t enough for Spencer and it wasn’t enough for me. After five years, his feelings for Sarah were still there, growing each day he would spend time with her. Their secret place? The sand dunes at the beach.
“The ocean had always been the only witness to our relationship.”
This story is definitely something great and amazing and beautiful. I had never read a book by Debra Doxer but after Play of Light, I will pay attention to her because she has a way with words that really hooks you until the end. I wanted more, I needed more every time a chapter would end. Even at the ending of the story, I still wanted more because this story is breathtakingly beautiful. The romance in the story develops at a pace that is in between of slow and fast. It doesn’t go too slow so the reader won’t get frustrated but not fast, which leaves the readers needing air to breathe. While I gave you a small summary of what the story is about, a LOT of stuff happens in the story that will throw you in a great, wild ride that you will enjoy entirely until it ends and you will want more.
This story made me think of my past and how closed off I used to be, not letting anybody in and then not having a care if people talked about me and what I would do. Spencer found his reasons: music and Sarah. I found my reasons: books. For you that thinks you are not worth it, that you are better off alone, don’t close yourself off. Look for help, talk to someone that you know will help, try and boost yourself with great quotes and find your reason that helps you get out of the dark phase you are currently in.
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